Stupid Daylight Savings Time. I was all set to write this wonderful, optimistic post about how good I'd been feeling lately, then WHAMO! DST + monthly hormonal revolt = crash and feeling crappy.
Prior to the crash, I noticed several very good days. And I mean VERY good. There were days where I woke up refreshed and smiling. I do not often wake up refreshed, and I almost never wake up smiling. Although my functionality didn't seem dramatically improved, I felt like I was improving.
With CFS, I am aware of the energy cost of every movement. I notice the effort it takes to raise my hands to wash my hair. I notice the effort of standing while getting dressed during the day. I notice the effort to write a journal page. I notice the effort of talking on the phone for 10 minutes to my husband. CFS is like a heavy fog that settles into my bones, and I am aware of it all the time.
But during those good days, it was like a lifting of the fog, or maybe more like a lightening. Instead of feeling like I was walking through sand, it felt like I was walking through glue. Yes, everything was still an effort, but so much less of an effort than it had been. I felt lighter, like gravity had lessened its pull on me. It was wonderful! And I was ready to declare yes, I am getting better!
And then we had the good ol' time change switcheroo, and a whole week has gone by with no good days. My sleep is back to being disrupted and unrefreshing. My schedule is all messed up, and my internal clock is not adjusting as quickly as I'd like. I'm staying up too late because I'm just not sleepy yet, dang it! And then I'm sleeping 10 hours and still waking up sluggish. Like I mentioned, my monthly period always exacerbates my symptoms, and having it coincide exactly with the time change has been a double whammy.
I'm hoping this week brings improvement, that my body will adjust to the time change and let me sleep well once again. I'm hoping I'm able to coax a few good days back.
Other things I've noticed: I don't have any side effects with the medication at all. I'm tolerating social visits much better than before. And I've been adding spontaneous little tasks to my day, things like washing the sink or unpacking a box. So maybe my functionality is improving a tiny bit.
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