“Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." - Sarah Ban Breathnach
Monday, April 19, 2010
In fact, I bet most of you were expecting this post after my last, highly optimistic post.
What is it about a sudden burst of energy that catapults us into unsustainable activity? Tsk, tsk, I should know better by now.
Well, I certainly took advantage of feeling a bit better. Pain has become a bigger issue for me lately, and so I revved up my exercise program a little to counteract it. Nothing aerobic, of course -- just a bit more stretching and strengthening. I have to admit, it felt soooo good! I just should have taken it a little more slowly, and not added quite as much as quickly as I did.
The other problem I ran into was a renewed interest in cooking. I've always enjoyed cooking -- not every night, necessarily, but I loved trying new recipes and using my lovely family as guinea pigs. Plus, since my new haircut, I decided I wanted to lose a little weight to look even more fabulous. Since I can't exercise my way down to my goal, that means eating better.
I discovered some wonderful freezer recipes, and I could not contain my enthusiasm. I've made Lazy Lasagna, Ham and Cheese Ziti, Spinach Soup, Chili, Tex Mex Rice Casserole, and Chicken Divan. (I've got all the recipes on my recipe blog, The Flagging Chef.) So, now I have eight dinners and seven lunches in the freezer, ready for those nights when I don't feel up to cooking and usually order pizza. They are all pretty easy recipes. I did all right on those days I had my kids helping me cook. I got a little crazy and made the Tex Mex Rice Casserole all by myself, and that was a big mistake.
Add to that a big stressor for me: We're going to have someone come in and clean once a month. She came over for an initial consultation on Friday. I am humiliated by my home. Back in the day, I took pride in the fact that although my house was occasionally cluttered (six kids, you know), it was never dirty. Now, once you get past the clutter, it is very dirty underneath. This is long overdue, but getting started is a horribly emotional ordeal for me. She starts on Wednesday; I know the payoff will be worth it.
So, I'm not exactly in a crash. That alone tells me I'm still on the mend. I just need to remember that the road to recovery is a bumpy old thing. I need to slow down and scale back a little. Be gentle with myself. Have a little chocolate.