Follow Up Doctor's Visit

I met with my doctor yesterday, and I have to say, it went swimmingly!  My labs show no toxicity, and he said we would have seen something already if there were a problem.  I am tolerating the meds very well.  He asked if I have noticed any changes yet.  I told him that I have moments where I feel very good, but they evaporate pretty quickly.  Before, I would have a very distinct energy envelope between mid-morning and early evening where I felt fairly good as long as I kept within my restrictions.  This is different and unpredictable.

He said he noticed that I got up on the exam table easier than I did at my first visit.  I was impressed that he had not only noticed but remembered.  So often, you feel like a blank face on an assembly line, and you wonder if the doctor even looks up from your chart.  I think he is becoming more and more interested and excited in our little experiment.

I can't say that my capacity for activity has necessarily increased, although I did spend almost two hours on my writing project the other day.  I got rather caught up in my story and didn't even notice the time.  I was pretty wiped out afterward, not surprisingly.  But no crash the next day.  I don't know, there may be some minute improvement, but it isn't big enough to quantify yet.

The doctor renewed my prescription and gave me two refills.  I don't have to return for three months.  By then, I should definitely know if the meds are helping at all.  If not, I stop treatment.  If so, we continue.  Fair enough, right?

My mantra these days is "We'll see, we'll see." 

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Week 1: Worse Before Better

I have been taking XMRV treatment for one week now.  I expected to feel worse before I felt better, and I think that is true.  However, it is more of a dip than a plunge.  I take the pill at night, and it does make me feel sleepy.  Now, for those of you familiar with CFS sleep disturbances, you know that this is actually a good thing!  I find I am able to drift off to sleep much quicker than usual, and I"m sleeping more deeply than I have in the past.  However, I'm sleeping longer than I had been by about an hour, and I am slow to get going in the morning.

My energy levels have become unpredictable.  I was used to a reliable "energy window" that would last from mid-morning to early evening most days (unless I overdid it).  Now, I'm finding my energy in bursts.  I'm sluggish; then I suddenly feel pretty good; then my energy abruptly disappears, only to come back again a little later in the day.  I'm riding it out.  I am careful to not overdo it when the energy is there, but to pace myself as usual.  When I feel deflated, I rest.  I've been spending more time in my bed than I usually do, not necessarily crashed or even officially resting, but just kicking back.

I'm not getting much done these days; there are still boxes waiting to be unpacked, but those will wait.  On the flipside, my household is not descending into complete disarray.  I'm still able to do minimal activities like laundry and nagging the kids.  I haven't felt the need to call for additional help, like I was afraid I might have to.

I haven't exercised since the move, for obvious reasons.  No stretching, no yoga.  I think I'll try to ease back into the yoga.  See how well I tolerate it.  I hope I do OK, because it helps so much with pain management.

Ha, once again, all I can say is we'll see, we'll see.

XMRV Treatment: First Impressions

So, it's been three days since I began XMRV treatment, and so far... well, not much, really.  My throat is a bit more sore than usual, and I feel a bit more achy, especially in my upper arms, neck, and hips.  Is that the "inflammation" that people talk about?  Also, I feel a little more sleepy than usual.

I don't seem to be having any negative reaction getting on the medication.  I haven't noticed any side effects related to it, like nausea, diarrhea, or insomnia.  The other effects could very well simply be because I've been doing a lot of push/crash for the last month.  First the move, and then my birthday was on the 10th, and I broke a lot of rules that whole weekend.  I crashed on Sunday, but I felt pretty good yesterday.  I had that little bit of energy that makes me wander around the house picking up things.  Good times.

I've been asked what kind of medication I'm taking, and what dosage, but I don't think it's a good idea to mention specifics at this point.  I'd like to wait and see what kind of results I get before first.

I will, however, mention the supplements that I'm taking that I'm hoping will improve my chances of success or extend any gains I might make.

Currently, I take Trader Joe's multivitamin, vitamin D, probiotics, fish oil capsules, denatured whey protein for glutathione, d-ribose x3 daily, melatonin, and generic acetaminophen PM.  I just ordered some sublingual B12 tabs and l-methylfolate, for methylation.

Hm, other than that -- I had a lovely Valentine's Day!  The kids helped make our special breakfast for dinner, and my husband treated me to See's candies.  I hope you all had a wonderful day, too!

It's Here!

The new medication finally arrived today...and I panicked!  After all my determination and tenacity, the moment of truth has arrived.  I am not ignorant of the risks involved.  And I find myself asking, Am I really that bad?  Do I really want to do this?

I mean, I've adjusted to my situation.  I've got so much help.  And things are better here; without the stairs, I'm finding that I'm bouncing back much more quickly.  Of course, "back" means just getting out of bed and able to take a shower.  I'm still housebound.  I still can't get out and visit with friends.  I still can't go to church.

It's time.  It's time to do this for me, to do this for my family, to do this for everyone out there suffering with no hope.  Maybe I can be a piece of the puzzle.  Maybe I can be a part of finding answers, answers that have been so elusive for so long -- long before I first became sick.

And maybe, just maybe, I'll get better.

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A nice Sunday thought for all of us going through hard times. Hugs, my friends.