“Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." - Sarah Ban Breathnach

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


Answer:  Christmas, the time change, and back-to-school.
Question:  What are "Things That Kick My Butt."

Oh, I mourn the end of summer.  I'm one of those moms who enjoys having their kids around.  Do you know that I did not hear the words "I'm bored" once?  Lazy days spent together, working on a puzzle or lounging in the pool.  It was delightful!

Then comes the mad dash to get haircuts, school supplies, and new clothes.  Worry keeps me up the night before, and then the dreaded alarm clock rudely demands I wake before my body tells me it's time.  Of course, I can't get back to sleep after, either.  Disrupted sleep and stress are taking their toll.  I'm dragging.  My energy window has caved in, and my activity threshold is almost non-existent. 

So once again, I must rein in my enthusiasm.  Be patient, and nurse my body through these changes.  Patience, bah.  I've been excited about testing my wings.  I want to begin small excursions out of the house.  Just half an hour, say to the park or just sitting at the mall, once a week.  It looks like that will have to wait a little bit longer.  Once again, this disease reminds me who's really in control here.


Renee said...

Oh, I hate when the CFS/ME or Lyme lets me know who's boss of my body...Sure hope things settle down into the new routine again...and glad you are still doing pretty well. I was able to ride in the car today, last Sat. go to a park, and Sunday to outdoor church where I worshipped from the van...but I worshiped. Feels good to get out after so many weeks and weeks of being homebound...Soon, Shelli...soon you will be at the mall!

willywagtail said...

I always loved having my kids home for the holidays. Even now, with the youngest nearing 18, I enjoy listening to my family functioning. I really like your wording of "energy window". How apt. I wish my friends could really understand that concept instead of thinking that I just need a rest during the day. Hope you get a window soon. Cherrie

Shelli said...

Thanks, Renee, how wonderful for you! And actually, my church has done a wonderful thing for me. I haven't been able to attend since last November. Then, this month, they have set up a live stream so I can watch the meeting from my computer! I bawled my head off the first day. I've missed it so badly. It was wonderful to see familiar faces and, like you said, to worship with a feeling of community.

Cherrie, thanks! It's funny, but I'm always trying to find ways of understanding CFS and describing it to others. I still get blank stares, though. :)

Elaine said...

I'm sorry you've hit a hard spot. Yes, it is nasty when it rears its ugly head and says, "you want to do what??? No way!"

Praying you will find that strength soon and be able to get out.

I love that your church has done that for you! What a huge blessing!

I also loved having my kids at home. I wasnt always home with them as I used to work, but I still loved having them around. I still do:)

Blessings to you,

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