“Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." - Sarah Ban Breathnach
Monday, December 27, 2010
I know it's not just me. I have a sneaking suspicion that pretty much all of us overdid it for the holidays.
Christmas is a time of reflection for me, a time for taking stock. What I learned this year is that, although CFS is not supposed to be a progressive disease, it has certainly been progressive for me. Each year, I have gotten worse and worse, and I've been able to do less and less. All I accomplished this year was shopping, and most of that was done online. Even so, by Christmas morning, I felt like I had just run a marathon and could barely crawl across the finish line. I ended up taking an hour and a half rest in the morning and another hour rest in the afternoon, and I still felt miserable well into the evening. I was grateful my family went to my in-laws without me, even while I was sad to miss out on the fun.
I suppose the good news is that I felt much better yesterday, so I didn't stay horribly crashed too long. I'm happy to get back to my regular routine, you know, the one where I'm actually taking care of myself. I love Christmas, but this isn't the Christmas I remember. Once again, I find myself packing it away and saying to myself, "Next year has to be better."
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas, and that it was a time well worth it! And here's to a healthier New Year for us all.